Freedom

I watched a friend retire yesterday. We had amazing day watching someone who was not 75...not 65...but she is 30 something. She retired from her day job to pursue helping people the way she wants to. She replaced her income. Being there watching her....watching all the people there for her...it caused me to dream just a little bit. Even though I am home with the kids...I dont feel completely free. My dream is to have Mike home with us too. Not to be unemployed and sit around the house and do nothing all day. But to experience real freedom. At the party someone said,"You dont know who you are until you are free." That freedom is the freedom to choose what you do that day and everyday....the freedom to go when and where you want to go....freedom from financial stress...freedom with your options....freedom to give as you please....and to give as much as you want without worrying if you have enough....freedom from worry....freedom from work stress....free to just be.... with no restraints. Sounds unheard of....even reading it back. But I know people who live like that. They either do what I do or they have figured out some other way to take control of their time and money.....something that other people haven't figured out yet.

I think its funny that people think that I believe that my biz is the only way...or what I want everyone to do. LOL.....no...I want people to experience freedom in what ever form it comes to them....to stop believing that working for someone else is the only way....but even more importantly I want people to not only dream, but believe their dream is possible. I know....the word dream...it sounds so far fetched. All I know is I didn't have kids to send them to a sitter 5 days a week for 10 hours a day and see them for 3 hours....or get married to spend those same 3 hours a day with my hubby...maybe more depending on traffic. I know there is more to life.

I want to be able to serve people....to give my time when and where people need it. And I know a lot people think this is crazy but I want to spend more time with my hubby. I've talked to plenty of people who say that they wouldn't want to spend every day with their husband home....but I have to say, " You dont know who you are until you are free." and you dont know who he is. When all stresses are gone expect the ones you can't control and you can do what you want.....your life is redefined. I could be like dating all over again.

All I know is life is too good....and there are too many things that I haven't seen or done with my family that I want to do....that I'm going to do.

I gotta get moving....so much to do....so little time. =0) its gonna be a great day

Amazing

I love to sit in a room with people who have the same goals, who are excited about life and about what they are doing. But the best part is watching those same people grow and change and mature right in front of your eyes. Some of the changes are subtle but they are still amazing. Its renewing to watch people in motion...people in transition...people who refuse to hold still while life takes it to em. These people...every single one of them are amazing and they add value to my life every single week. I've seen a woman go from breaking out with red blotches just from talking in front of people to being an amazing woman of power who now controls the room when she walks in. Its changes that happen inwardly that manifest themselves outwardly. I just hope those same people see the same things in me. I'm in the room with world changers every single week...I know some people don't believe that one person can change the world. But if they change one person's world....I consider that a world changer.

If you are not with a group of people who make you want to be better and do better...what are you waiting for??

Day 1

I used to keep a journal...I've had many. But since I've been married and had kids I haven't written consistently in a journal....so its been at least 5 years. I am writing now because I feel...I know that writing helps me to focus...it helps me to think more clearly. 


A lot has happened since I last wrote. Like I said i got married ...it will be 5 years on July 14th. =0)  We have 2 little girls that are amazing! I taught Preschool Special Ed for 3 years and met some amazing people....and some crazy people...lol. But I had fun. I stopped teaching so that I could pursue other dreams, focus on the business we started and see my kids for more than 3 hours a day. 


I have amazing friends that I've known forever...some friends I have unexpectantly become very close with...others that I never expected to experience distance with I am....and I am learning how to deal with it. I've always been a people pleaser....I'm social ...and I just want people to like me. While the events of life can depress most people the only thing that I find really depressing is not being around people....lol. All of that being said I've had to work through some hurt feelings and realize that life changes people...and people's lives change. And just like in my life the things that were once important, sometimes no longer matter. Priorities change...and sometimes that means that the characteristics of your friendship may change. So I decided I can either be mad about it or I can accept it. With some help from Kim Keith I've been able to put some things in perspective and accept that I no longer hold a place of high importance in some peoples lives....and that its ok....and it does me no good to be mad or feel hurt because life has changed. I need to just love people how they allow me to love them...even if it is from a distance...and even if its a person I never expected to have to love from a far.


On a different note...the more I look at people the more I realize that people are exactly who they choose to be. People try to blame their circumstances or their life situations or even their childhood for who they are at this very moment but the truth is you are exactly who you CHOOSE to be...and no one is responsible for who you have become but you. At some point you have to take responsibility for the choices you make and the life you lead.


Today I started a 30-40 day binge on Jesus. I got up prayed and read the Word. And I read Luke 1:26-55. Verse 37 said, "For no words from God will ever fail." Just think about that for a minute....NO words from GOD will ever fail. Simple...and good.