Day 1

I used to keep a journal...I've had many. But since I've been married and had kids I haven't written consistently in a journal....so its been at least 5 years. I am writing now because I feel...I know that writing helps me to focus...it helps me to think more clearly. 


A lot has happened since I last wrote. Like I said i got married ...it will be 5 years on July 14th. =0)  We have 2 little girls that are amazing! I taught Preschool Special Ed for 3 years and met some amazing people....and some crazy people...lol. But I had fun. I stopped teaching so that I could pursue other dreams, focus on the business we started and see my kids for more than 3 hours a day. 


I have amazing friends that I've known forever...some friends I have unexpectantly become very close with...others that I never expected to experience distance with I am....and I am learning how to deal with it. I've always been a people pleaser....I'm social ...and I just want people to like me. While the events of life can depress most people the only thing that I find really depressing is not being around people....lol. All of that being said I've had to work through some hurt feelings and realize that life changes people...and people's lives change. And just like in my life the things that were once important, sometimes no longer matter. Priorities change...and sometimes that means that the characteristics of your friendship may change. So I decided I can either be mad about it or I can accept it. With some help from Kim Keith I've been able to put some things in perspective and accept that I no longer hold a place of high importance in some peoples lives....and that its ok....and it does me no good to be mad or feel hurt because life has changed. I need to just love people how they allow me to love them...even if it is from a distance...and even if its a person I never expected to have to love from a far.


On a different note...the more I look at people the more I realize that people are exactly who they choose to be. People try to blame their circumstances or their life situations or even their childhood for who they are at this very moment but the truth is you are exactly who you CHOOSE to be...and no one is responsible for who you have become but you. At some point you have to take responsibility for the choices you make and the life you lead.


Today I started a 30-40 day binge on Jesus. I got up prayed and read the Word. And I read Luke 1:26-55. Verse 37 said, "For no words from God will ever fail." Just think about that for a minute....NO words from GOD will ever fail. Simple...and good.